A week ago today I started with this crisis of insomnia.
At this time, 2.15 am, I found myself in A & E with a concert tour "Oral Fixation" by Shakira. That triggered my memory and reminded me that this was the first concert I attended with my PP here in Mexico City, that 4 years ago and I remember it was at the Sports Palace and the song I enjoyed most was "not ".
That has taken me a year ago when that song was popular. It was in 2005, I just had to move house, had just been something that made me stay longer at home and that gave me more time to watch TV, so I could see the video of that song on VH1 and a day I went out to work following a Mixup to buy the album. I remember
then went through a crisis of insomnia and what he did was listen to music and write, write the first thing that came to mind me, and so, without realizing it, began to write what I cared and I did not dare to admit . At that time I was longing for something, something that I thought would never come (is singing anthology, this also enjoyed). It was a time of many changes in my life and I was somewhat uncertain and confused.
now that I realize I was so obsessed with the idea of \u200b\u200bfinding a partner who would not let me enjoy the moment I was living, I could see everything he had and what was achieved. The time that I could finally rent a place in the area where I always wanted when I bought the furniture I always dreamed, when I put aside the apathy and fear and dared to return to school and begin to study the degree, when I had the courage to cut pit with a situation that had been carrying for years, although that represented me having to face one of my greatest fears: The fear of loneliness.
was precisely at this time when the crisis grew, just as Christmas was approaching and fell into account that this year would have to pass these dates only. I remember thinking to remain lying in bed at Christmas and new year and the year q pretend these days had not been included in the calendar. I finished the contrary, on December 24 instead of staying in bed, I got up early, took a shower and I went outside, did a tour of the city and ended up in a mall buying things to prepare a special dinner . I did what Carrie: I face my loneliness and invited her to dinner. I must confess I had a good time, yes I finished a bottle of red wine myself but I realized it was more my fear of being alone that caused me loneliness itself.
So I started 2006 with a different attitude, and perishes it was all about attitude, because in the second month of the year appeared out of nowhere it both had sought, just when I decided it was not so urgent, that was not a priority, when I put aside the anxiety and obsession, I began to enjoy the situation, when I started to enjoy my company, my routine, changes. Just as magically arrived, and was better than I had expected I'd imagined what could have asked, and fortunately here follows.
Now I'm at a similar point, because I'm obsessed with getting something that I have, somewhat less important, less valuable and less likely to get, as I'm obsessed, maybe that was responsible for the insomnia, but I want to do the same, I relax I accept that is true, I have no job but the thing is not as serious as I do, it's time to take control of my emotions instead of letting them control me, it's time to end this year with this obsession and start the next with a different attitude, and who knows, perhaps just comes out of nowhere, where I least expect the work that I have been looking and be better than expected, as imagined, as requested.
meantime continue to enjoy Shakira and my memories, the times were good, but these are better, and the future it will be even more.
At this time, 2.15 am, I found myself in A & E with a concert tour "Oral Fixation" by Shakira. That triggered my memory and reminded me that this was the first concert I attended with my PP here in Mexico City, that 4 years ago and I remember it was at the Sports Palace and the song I enjoyed most was "not ".
That has taken me a year ago when that song was popular. It was in 2005, I just had to move house, had just been something that made me stay longer at home and that gave me more time to watch TV, so I could see the video of that song on VH1 and a day I went out to work following a Mixup to buy the album. I remember
then went through a crisis of insomnia and what he did was listen to music and write, write the first thing that came to mind me, and so, without realizing it, began to write what I cared and I did not dare to admit . At that time I was longing for something, something that I thought would never come (is singing anthology, this also enjoyed). It was a time of many changes in my life and I was somewhat uncertain and confused.
now that I realize I was so obsessed with the idea of \u200b\u200bfinding a partner who would not let me enjoy the moment I was living, I could see everything he had and what was achieved. The time that I could finally rent a place in the area where I always wanted when I bought the furniture I always dreamed, when I put aside the apathy and fear and dared to return to school and begin to study the degree, when I had the courage to cut pit with a situation that had been carrying for years, although that represented me having to face one of my greatest fears: The fear of loneliness.
was precisely at this time when the crisis grew, just as Christmas was approaching and fell into account that this year would have to pass these dates only. I remember thinking to remain lying in bed at Christmas and new year and the year q pretend these days had not been included in the calendar. I finished the contrary, on December 24 instead of staying in bed, I got up early, took a shower and I went outside, did a tour of the city and ended up in a mall buying things to prepare a special dinner . I did what Carrie: I face my loneliness and invited her to dinner. I must confess I had a good time, yes I finished a bottle of red wine myself but I realized it was more my fear of being alone that caused me loneliness itself.
So I started 2006 with a different attitude, and perishes it was all about attitude, because in the second month of the year appeared out of nowhere it both had sought, just when I decided it was not so urgent, that was not a priority, when I put aside the anxiety and obsession, I began to enjoy the situation, when I started to enjoy my company, my routine, changes. Just as magically arrived, and was better than I had expected I'd imagined what could have asked, and fortunately here follows.
Now I'm at a similar point, because I'm obsessed with getting something that I have, somewhat less important, less valuable and less likely to get, as I'm obsessed, maybe that was responsible for the insomnia, but I want to do the same, I relax I accept that is true, I have no job but the thing is not as serious as I do, it's time to take control of my emotions instead of letting them control me, it's time to end this year with this obsession and start the next with a different attitude, and who knows, perhaps just comes out of nowhere, where I least expect the work that I have been looking and be better than expected, as imagined, as requested.
meantime continue to enjoy Shakira and my memories, the times were good, but these are better, and the future it will be even more.
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